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The Dark Side of Self Improvement: Suzanne Eder (Full Transcript)

Suzanne Eder at TEDxWilmington

Here is the full text of author Suzanne Eder’s talk titled “The Dark Side of Self Improvement” at TEDxWilmington conference.

Suzanne Eder is a world-class teacher, facilitator and mentor. Suzanne currently authors an award-winning monthly column in Living Well Magazine.

Suzanne Eder – TEDx Talk TRANSCRIPT

Please, raise your hand if you’ve – thank you, wow, that was easy, OK – if you’ve ever tried to improve something about yourself or your life. Maybe… Yes. Thank you. Keep it up. No. Keep your hand up, please. Just for a moment.

So, I want you to focus now on one particular thing that you may have tried to improve, and think about the actual process that you went through: the time and the energy that you spent going from where you were to where you wanted to be.

So think about that, and if that process for you was maybe frustrating or difficult or it seemed to be taking too long, keep your hand up just a little bit longer. Just a little bit longer, I promise. OK.

Now, focus on the outcome. Focus on the outcome of your self-improvement process. If you are a little disappointed with the results, keep your hand up just a few more seconds. If you feel like you really succeeded, got where you wanted to go, you can go ahead and drop your hand. If your hand is still up, you may have been lured to the dark side of self-improvement. It’s tiring, isn’t it?

I have been lured to the dark side, as have many of my clients, and perhaps you have. The dark side exists because deep within many of us – at any level of skill or accomplishment – is an ancient belief that there’s something wrong with us. We may not be fully conscious of it, but it’s there, and it affects us. It’s a painful belief to hold. It’s also a false belief.

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But until we know it’s false, we’re in the dark about who we are and what’s possible in our lives. When we think there’s something wrong with us, we have a strong impulse to fix it because if we can fix it, then we can prove to ourselves that we are okay, that we are worthy, that we have what it takes.

But nothing needs to be proven. A fix isn’t necessary. We’re not broken. We’re whole. We’re whole and learning. We’re whole and growing. The bud is not less whole than the blossom; it’s just at a different stage of development. We are not less whole when we feel unfulfilled in a certain area; we’re just at a stage of development that’s calling us to greater fulfillment.

We are growing. So we don’t need to prove we have what it takes. Of course we have what it takes. We have what it takes to grow. It is innate.

But when we harbor this belief that there’s something wrong with us and we initiate an improvement process from that point, we’re on what I call the dark side of self-improvement because we’re literally in the dark.

And in the dark, a whole colony of self-negating experiences can flourish, and I want to shine the light on two of those.

First, when we think there’s something wrong with us, we look outside of ourselves for answers and solutions. We abandon our own inner wisdom, our inspired impulses, our genuine longings, and instead, we place all of our trust in the advice of others. We abide by common knowledge rather than the uncommon wisdom of our heart.

And in fact, we just give our power away, and as we do that, we start to feel hollow; we’re taking the steps towards improvement, but because we’ve abandoned ourselves, we’re not fully alive. So it’s difficult, and it doesn’t work particularly well.

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We disempower ourselves when we follow someone else’s path and not our own. So disempowerment is one of those self-negating experiences we can have on the dark side.

Another is a lack of fulfillment. When we think there’s something wrong with us that needs to be fixed, the improvement process becomes about the fix, the endpoint, the goal.

So we strive to get to that point because we only experience satisfaction when we reach the goal, which means we’re depriving ourselves of satisfaction in the here and now. And because of that same false belief, we have a tendency to judge ourselves each step of the way because we’re comparing ourselves unfavorably to that goal we haven’t yet reached. This is the dark side of self-improvement.

When we secretly believe there’s something wrong with us, we will keep creating experiences that reinforce that belief. It’s depleting and diminishing.

But there is another way I want to tell you about a client of mine whom I’ll call Darla. When I first met Darla, she was extremely unhappy in her job and she was frustrated with herself for being stuck. In other words, she felt there was something wrong with her.

She assumed that if she could find work with a company whose mission was more aligned with what really mattered to her, that would be more fulfilling.

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