Here is the full transcript of Noor Tagouri’s TEDx Talk: Calling on the 10,000 at TEDxFoggyBottom conference.
My name is Noor Tagouri and on most occasions I’m used to being the elephant in the room: an Arab woman who is a hijabi, who wants to be a news anchor talk show host, who probably has enough scarves to keep you warm for 17 arctic winters. But today, I am honored to be in this room filled with people who believe in unleashing the rebellious spirit within each of us.
My story starts in the first grade. I walked into my first grade class room and I noticed there was only one other girl with dark hair. I sat next to her and I whispered, “Are you Muslim too?” And she looked at me a little funny and responded, “Am I what??” And from that day on, for the next ten years, I would go through this paralyzing identity crisis. When we had to turn in forms for school that asked if we spoke any other languages at home, I would put mine at the bottom of the pile, and no one would know I spoke Arabic. When my friends asked why my mom wore that thing on her head, I’d say, “I don’t know.”
And when the Muslim holiday of Eid came around, I would wait until after Christmas break to use my gifts, because I wanted my friends to think I got gifts for Christmas too. And any time I think about this, I want to go back and shake myself and say, “What were you thinking?” But I wasn’t thinking, not for myself, at least I was following. Because I was still understanding what it meant to wage a personal rebellion. Now, when most of us think of rebellion, we think, some are rebellious by nature and others live passive lives of conformity.
We often think of rebellion as a resistance, an opposition: dyeing your hair green and burning your bras on a stick. But that’s not entirely true. I believe in rebellion as a form of honesty. To be our most authentic self is to be rebellious. Now I want you to take a moment and think of the best version of yourself possible.
Your dream self. Your truest self. We call this ‘your personal legend’, and we’ve all been familiar with our legends for quite some time now. This is who you’ve always wanted to be, what you’ve always wanted to accomplish. And we know that living our personal legend is the only means by which you can live a satisfying life.
Now, hold on, we’re going to do this together. Look to the person next to you and take a couple of seconds — literally, because I’m on a time crunch — but a couple of seconds to share your personal legend with them. All right, go!
All right – all right, guys — personal legend sharing time.
So my personal legend showed up when I was about 8 years old. I would come home from school, toss my book bag on the floor and rush to the living room to watch Oprah with my mom, 4 PM sharp, every single day.
Now I know everybody loves Oprah, like you, but I really loved Oprah: how she asked questions, how she prompted people to share their most vulnerable stories, and how she made everybody so comfortable in their chair. I wanted to do that. I wanted to be her. I had this fiery passion for asking questions and telling stories. And luckily, my parents noticed.
My mom would take me to writing camps and internships, my dad would sit and explain the news to me, and take me to visit journalists that I really admired. Now when I was living in that small town, I never ever in a million years thought that I would wear the hijab. But when I was about 15, we moved out of that small town, and just outside of Washington DC, I impulsively put on the hijab, determined to deal with my identity crisis.
Now I’d done my research and I learned that in the US there had never been a woman who wore the hijab who is a reporter on the commercial television market. So I was determined to make that happen.
I wanted to get a headstart, so I got a job at a local newspaper, homeschooled the rest of my high school, started college at 16, became a regular guest on Huff Post Live and then a Huffington Post blogger. And then in college something really great happened. I found this passion for spoken word poetry through one of my best friends and mentor, Jenahi.
And a few days after I turned 18, I prayed what we call in Islam istikhara, guidance prayer, and I asked God for guidance in the career path that I had chosen. Now the next morning after I prayed that prayer, I had a poetry performance for World Aids Day and after my performance a woman came up on stage, took the mic out of my hands and in front of everybody, she said, “Noor, you’re a broadcast journalism major?”